I’m picking up my writing habit again. It’s funny when you abandoned something just to understand you still need it. I don’t know about people, but I feel kind of embarrassed taking back something I have left. Something like a habit, a word, or a relationship. Most of the times, it’s like admitting you were wrong. Of course there are always things you will have to abandon along the way, because that’s the process of how you change. You realize you are a room with limited space, and it can’t fit everything you collect. Something always has to go, until you find out there’s hardly anything more appropriate. Abandoned things, especially intangible ones, usually don’t last long. So consider yourself lucky when you are able to recollect a piece of you from the past. Is that why antiques are much more valuable?
Talking about relationship, I’m about to pick up one from the past. Begin with a big apology, I guess. And then, well, I don’t know. I’m good at improvising anyway haha. A good sign of which relationship worth making anew, is to detect where your regret smells the most. Per this relationship I’m taking about, my sense of regret STINKS for a big while already. And right now I’m babbling how stinky it feels, instead of actually doing the apology thing haha. I’ll do it after this.
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I’m not good with words, it always take me longer than I expect to write. And on top of that I’m listening to Coldplay’s new album. Gosh it’s like trying to deactivate a bomb while a stripdancer keeps hovering around x_X . But I need to pour these words out or I’ll be drowned in my own pool of thoughts. So go easy on me, okay?
